At the start of my journey I spent a lot of time worrying. I’ll admit I still worry today but I learned that my son will eventually show his colors if using. I am working on me, and the whole “LET GO and LET GOD” piece of this equation.
As parents we can drive ourselves crazy wondering about every phone call, where they are, who they are associating with, what will they do when we vacation, how come he has money, how come he doesn’t have money, why is he out so late, why is he home early?
Our minds race like a meteor shower when addiction grips our families.
I have learned from the sound advice of others and the experiences with my son’s addiction/recovery that eventually the true colors of recovery will be exposed.
Whether the colors are blacks and grays or an amazing collage of beauty, the palette is truly out of our hands. As parents we often waste our energy trying to figure them out. Stop figuring and let go. If they are in recovery it will remain peaceful and if they are active there was nothing you could have done to prevent it.
I hope this helps.
Peace and strength
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