I remember back to the days of my son’s heavy active addiction. He was no longer was living in our home as I had started to hand his life choices back to him. I still have to work everyday to “distance myself” as addiction is truly about a Journey with no Destination.
I rise from my bed each morning and “glide” my incredibly toned frame into the kitchen. (That is a joke) I would flip the television on and at some point a pretty blonde newscaster would begin to chirp about bank robberies or other horrific drug related crimes. Pictures of young men and women that could be my own child flashed from the blue haze of the screen to my darkened kitchen.
I would clutch my coffee, hold my breath, and stare into the light. I became a captive audience to this morning bank robbery lottery that I never wanted to win.
Thankfully my son’s photograph was never splashed upon that screen.
Conceptually I knew I could not CONTROL his addiction yet this phobia would paralyze me each day. Continued recovery is often much work for this author.
It must be truly heartbreaking for the parents of these children to see their “babies” on the 6 a.m. news. I pray for peace to all those affected. The media paints our children as criminals as “crime sells” far more advertising than common sense addiction talk.
News-phobia, is another of the many fears driven into my parental psyche by our children’s addiction.
To see your son or daughter’s face broadcast to the masses is a pain no parent should endure. I am sure others relate as parents of addicts have interesting similarities that bring them together.
peace and strength
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