Good times Bad Times
I have always jotted my thoughts down in this blog and tried to post quickly without over editing (Pretty obvious on some posts) I find when I start to edit the post ends up far less emotional and far too cerebral.
There is a fine balance those of us who parent addicts must strive to attain. It is the struggle to balance our hearts and our heads.
Logically we know the tactics needed to insure the safety of our family. (Don’t’ enable, codependency etc. )
Emotionally we love our children and would give our own lives if we could cure them.
A reader recently commented that my posts are pain filled as of late. I agree and they are reflective of how I feel emotionally.
I am truly saddened that my son’s disease has not been kept in check and again he runs wild.
I miss the times of true sobriety and he was accountable for his actions and his words. Today is a different period, yet not the final period.
GOOD TIMES BAD TIMES
Like the old song, the addiction journey is laced with both good and bad times. As parents we are emotional basket cases when we first discover our child’s addiction. Then we move forward on our journey as we learn self pity never helped a child recover.
As the journey progresses we learn that relapse happens. Our friend’s kids relapse and we support them. If our child relapses our friends support us. The whole time we are learning about the balance of the head and the heart.
So to answer my friend / reader ….Yes my posts this month are laced with sadness. However I have not given up hope. I know my son can again regain control of his ship. When our child is active in addiction there is sadness, however the sadness should never be mistaken for the abandonment of hope. That will never happen.
I will wait for him.
peace and strength!
Categorised as: Coping Skills
Good post as always in spite of the minimal editing!
Blessings
Good days and bad days … So important to attempt to maintain balance through the ups and downs. Don’t let the highs get too high. Don’t let the lows get too low. Wax on, wax off. ~M
I appreciate the fact that you are so real when you post. It helps us to know that we are not alone and that it is normal to feel the pain that we are experiencing. There is no way around it, when our children relapse, it is extremely painful and emotionally draining, it feels like our heart is being torn apart, we want to fix it, and we know we can’t and yes that can be depressing. It is okay to not be okay. Praying for all of our addicted children and their parents. There is absolutely always hope.