Save the children
The more parental attempts we make at fixing, remedying, or controlling their drugging the weaker we make them. This stop the saving concept goes against every thing you did as a young nurturing mom / dad.
If we try to fix the situation we thus enable.
Attempts to Save my Son that I have made, although not for a while:
Trying to help in the Courts
Trying to help with my son’s bills
Trying to help monitor his addiction
Trying to monitor his employment.
I still have to work on my recovery everyday, even within his continued period of sobriety. Last night, a work night, my son was out with another friend. Both in recovery they stayed out well past midnight.
* The old me – 223 calls and or text messages to my son’s cell. Known in my home as “blowing up his phone” . I gave up demolition long ago…
* The more healthy me – ( Why do I feel like I sound like Valeri Bertinelli ) was to roll my tired ass over watch ” American Idol” and fall off to sleep . Yes I watch American Idol …Go Lauren !
I’ll take the new healthier me…it’s far better for both of us.
For the record he was up, making lunch and out early this morn for a day of physical labor at a job he found and has maintain all through his sobriety.
Today is a good day. Better because I learned not to SAVE him early in the journey.
Peace and strength.
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