4 short years ago
My son took my car last night – with permission ( 4 years ago he would steal it and to make a drug run )
Last night it rained torrentially and he left the sun roof open when he returned home. The rain poured from the sky and we were unaware of the car’s open roof.
I awoke this morn and noticed the sunroof was open last night all night. I grimaced.
My recovery was strong this morning.
4 years ago ( pre recovery ) I would have berated him for being an idiot for leaving the sun roof open all night in torrential rain. I would have flipped out on a rampage that would have lasted all morning, subsequently ruining the day.
Then it came to me…something my son had said a while back. “Life on life’s terms. ”
At some point in life someone in your family is going to leave a sunroof open. It’s not a big deal…I thought of how truly far my son had progressed in the last few years.
Four short years ago he would take my car for no other reason but to “cop dope”
Four short years ago he would not have asked to use the car but simply stolen it when I went to bed
Four short years ago he would not be willingly attending a meeting where friends that support each other in recovery surround him.
Let it rain I have seen far worse storms in my life.
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Great attitude….what a difference it makes to think in these terms.
Thanks Barbara – just blog rolled you Let me know if that is ok?
BTW, I’ve left my windows down overnight and it rained like a monsoon. I’m not a recovering addict, I’m just a human being.
Funny how when our children accept recovery we tend to expect perfection. Forgetting they are human and will make stupid mistakes just as we all do.
Our first reaction is to take every mistake no matter how innocent and tie it to that they are using or soon will be.
Our goal should be to accept our son as a human being and not an ex-addict. That is much healthier for everyone.