I was the beneficiary of Step 9 last night.
One of my son’s coconspirators, now in 12 step recovery, approached me on my evening commute. He was one of the wildest in the “gang ” back when my son was running hard.
He is now 9 months clean and I am very happy for him. I listened to his “amends” quietly, not saying much. I figured I was one of the few recipients who actually knew what he was trying to accomplish on this rainy Boston eve. I let him speak.
He stammered a bit and I stopped him and told him.
“I don’t want to accept this YET. I want you to come back to me in 1 year and do this again. I hope that you continue on your current path. Forget about your 9 months and always remember that TODAY is the only thing that matters.”
I will completely accept your amends and allow you back into my home in one year. It’s his first attempt at recovery and right now he seems a bit “pink cloud “ Perhaps I am being judgmental but I didn’t’ even allow my own flesh and blood back into my home at 9 months.
I followed up later with an email thanking him for his attempt to make amends and told him I would pray for him.
Another kid to pray for… I pray God continues to help this kid lift the disease and he does visit me in 1 year, still clean and sober.
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